My little guy has been moving constantly today. The thought that there actually a baby in my belly overwhelms my heart, especially now that I feel him more and more. The thought that God chose me to be this baby’s momma makes my heart come alive. Such praise to a faithful God I serve. I have done nothing to deserve the good that He bestows, yet He is good anyway.

I wonder every time I eat whether Baby J loves or hates what I’m eating. Or when I’m exercising, if he gets worn and exhausted with that feeling of ‘why in the world am I doing this’ too. Does he like the music I listen to? or the shows that we watch? I wonder if he knows when I’m happy, or sad, frustrated, mad, hurt. Is any of this influencing him yet?

As he is tucked away so sweetly in my belly, I think about how we are so sheltered in the shadow of our Almighty’s wing. He knows our every move, every thought, our emotions, our intentions, and our heart. God needs every single part of us and this baby needs all of me right now. Am I doing all that I can to grow a healthy baby? and am I living a life that is worthy of the cross? Am I striving to be the best I can, in this one life we live, knowing that I’m covered, protected, and shielded but the Creator of the Earth?

We are selfish people. Most young children want to be just like their mommy or daddy. My prayer is that I continue to lay my life down to be more and more like Christ… So my children want to be like Jesus… a light to this world… a carrier of truth in this society with a standard that is only Jesus… to love hard regardless of the circumstances… and to run their race until they cross the finish line. I have a tattoo on my foot that represents Hebrews 12 …

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus,the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

Lord teach me your ways and guide me in your truth…

Be the author of my life and Baby J’s… 

Let me be and do all that I can to steward this child as you desire and let us be all that I can for your kingdom’s cause…